okay so me and addie went to my grandmas house for supper because j was there. and all was well until j says “god i really don’t want to go home to see mommy because i know she’s gonna yell and rip on me and i’m gonna walk out of there crying”. and i’m like “j you really do put all the yelling upon yourself. you lied straight to her and dennis.” and she’s like “i did not fucking lie to them.” and i’m like “you told them you weren’t talking to him. that you were living with a coworker.” and she goes “why did you have to show mommy that picture of me on his facebook? that was none of her business. or yours.” and i’m like “J IT’S FUCKING ON FACEBOOK. YOU CAN’T EXPECT ME TO NOT TELL OUR MOTHER THAT YOU HAVE BEEN LYING STRAIGHT TO HER FACE. WE FUCKING WORRY ABOUT YOU.” so we go to our house. my mom sees her and is like “so j i thought you weren’t with ken? why the fuck would you want to live in a disgusting house like that?” and she’s like “i don’t know.” and my mom’s like “how did you get back with him?” and she said he came to her work and shit. and my mom’s like J THIS IS WHY YOU HAVE SO MANY ILLNESSES, THAT FUCKING HOUSE IS STREAMING WITH DISEASE. and my mom’s yelling about how she has to get her life back in place and soon enough she’s going to be 30 and still with this fucking loser and then she’ll really be shit out of luck because he’s never going to do anything for her. and she’s crying and she just keeps saying “mom i don’t fucking know what i want to do. i want to teach. but i can’t come home.” or some shit like that. and she walked out crying.

i texted her just to let her know that i love her and to please not do anything rash. 

i was praying to whatever god there might be that she is okay and that things work out for her.